Dreams and desires – are yours being pushed down or are you allowing them to flourish?
Has there been a time in your life when you have wanted something so desperately? You couldn’t stop thinking about it, its just a dream and will never happen. Something didn’t feel right in your life. Maybe you don’t even know what it is you just can’t put your finger on it?
I felt something was missing from my life
I started to question what my life was about when I began to spend more time on my yoga mat. My mat was a space to reconnect and take time away from what I thought I should be doing. I could be me on my mat. There was something that just kept me going back each week to my mat but I couldn’t put my finger on it.
Once I began my yoga teaching training I knew I wanted to incorporate yoga more in my life. For me this was the first time in my life that deep down I relished studying, I couldn’t get enough and I still can’t.
My teacher training was a roller coaster of emotions – massive highs and huge lows, but beyond doubt the most amazing experience of my life. Funnily enough I never went into the training wanting too teach! But boy did I come out of training all fired up to teach, even after my first opportunity to teach on the course (Day 1!) I knew this was for me.
After setting up classes in my local area I desperately wanted to teach full time,. I knew there was no chance of that happening as I needed to work to pay the bills, to live and thats what you do isn’t it, you go out there and get a job? I would spend hours thinking about how I could make it work. Getting frustrated as I couldn’t see a way out. I just knew I wasn’t meant to be doing what I was doing. I thought it was just that, a dream.
How to make the dream a reality
Over time I needed to let go of that dream, it took over my life. I felt like I was struggling with being present with what I had. Wishing the time away so that I might get closer to my dream. I started to enjoy my day job and got stuck in. A promotion popped up and I was still teaching in the evenings so I had the best of both worlds. I worked hard to keep up my crazy schedule and never lost my passion for teaching.
After a year of knuckling down I had the most amazing news that could change my life. An opportunity had come up for me to reach for my dream. To go for it and commit to my yoga business 100% and move it forward. It felt so right but at the same time I was scared and nervous, now it was here could I really make this work?
A yoga business felt so radically different to what I thought the norm was (guess thats because there is no norm!!) But do you know what, it was one of the easiest decisions to make when it finally came down to it. This dream had been manifesting itself over the years and all my actions and everything I did felt like stepping stones to take me there. I let go of the craving, the frustration of never thinking it would happen, which wasn’t easy. I started to see what I had around me and this was exactly what I needed to do, I can see that now!
In Deepak Chopra’s meditations he says:
“I’m open to whatever happens and when it comes I will know the next step to take. My true self contains every possibility, my desires have the power to manifest”
Keep your dreams alive
I’d sown the seed of my deepest desire many years ago and was able to let it go so that I was so fixated on the outcome – is there anything in your life right now that you deeply desire? Can you let it go and be open to whatever happens?
Fast forward a few years and its constantly changing. I have dreams which excite me. I can do this and so can you.